It's been a year plus since i last post.

I read my previous post and had a good look at my past 12 months. It has been wonderful and exciting working in the shipyard. But being a 8 day per week job (8 day being sunday plus holilday), i practically sold my soul to my company.

i've been thinking over the past few days. has my social life grind to a halt? it seems that i would be working like this for nearly over a year. is this the job that really satisfy my life?

I am searching for the meaning of life. Desperately more so when i google "meaning of life". there seems to be so many answers but no solutions for my predicament. am i gg to work like this for a big corporation, slogging my life in return for recognition and sufficient lifestyle to get past by? Do i pursue my interests that do not reward one in a financially stable life?

12 months onwards, i have feel i need to move on from my current position. i feel i need to explore outside my playground. take the plunge into the unknown. i feel i am still young and i have alot to offer for various opportunities. I need to be accountable for myself because when i look back i want to tell myself i did not regret jumping into the unknown.

at this stage, exploring more is the option for me. to stay would only cement my regimented lifestyle which i may regret in the years to come.

I found solace in hamlet:

"to be or not to be"